Twist

Well hello peeps! Its been ages since I update this blog with something interesting. Well i cant really say this is interesting either, yet i just dont know where to spill my problems. Yes, this posting is about me, blabbing about my problems, whining about how im tired of my life and stuff.

These days i often have that crucial mood swing. I dont know wheter ita because of the PMS and stuff or is it simply because life IS a bitch.

Im tired, yet there are so many things to do -esp the cake thingy which has driven me an inch to insanity. I wanna cry, but i dont know why i just couldnt, even if I want to, i dont really have the reason to do so. I wanna go to a brand new place I havent been before, get a new ID and just bury the old mingming. Its not that my life sucks (well sometimes it does tho -spending satnight in the kitchen for the sake of money, blah! I know, so lame!) im just pretty much tired of my life, i envy others a lot. Ive seen (and heard) stories about teens my age, living a teenage dream, without even having to work for a single heartbeat of their life! While me, now im currently sweating blood just to get things that I want. And im not even happy!!

Life has always been unfair eh? Even my current house is not a home for me. My heart does not fond of this place. I keep on wanting to leave this house, go to some place out of town and rent a house and have a new life.

Probably its just me, being such an ungrateful person while there are millions other people who have less money than i have, who doesnt even know what to eat tomorrow, and has never eaten any cake for his/her whole life. Yes, probably its just me a sick-minded girl who really needs to be grateful for everything she has!

Well actually, i wanna go to college/university. My study plan to Japan is currently posponed again as i cant speak japanese fluently and yes, its godamn freakin expensive! Yet still i wanna go there!

Somebody, please slap me so i could be a grateful person. Or please lend me your ear :( yes, ill give you a cake or two for your payment!