farewell, 2011!

4 more hours to 2012! and i'm pretty happy :) tonight im gonna have the annual family dinner as today's my grandma's birthday so yeah I barely celebrate new year with my friends. but anyway tonight finally im gonna celebrate the new years eve with old chums! yeay! and now, since i dont have anything to do, and i dont really feel like baking any cake,and im not hungry yet so i guess blogging is the best option! :)

2011. what happened in 2011?

expanded my cupcakes business . fell in love . got my heart broken by assholes . accepted in Grand Hyatt Jakarta . made so many new hotelier friends . and declared the we're-not-bffs-anymore . being lousy at blogging . make cookies 2700-5400 pcs a day . intrigued and got crazed by a guy in cafe . met Sarah, cemar, kak sisy gery jose etc . crying inside Hyatt's chocolate room cos i thought im not loveable as others . graduate from Trisakti . learned the real meaning of unity in diversity . got myself cheated . starts to wear make up. tend to be more properly dressed up . failed at losing weight and gained a few kg (damn!-okay this happens every year LOL) . starstuck with my own friend . learned how to make proper cupcakes . designed my cupcakes logo! :) . manage to be a cum laude-r in trisakti and be the best D1 student! yeay! . cried alone in the kitchen at 4 AM . havent gone clubbing for once this year . make money instead of spending it too much . stalk over people in fb! lol . didnt go to sleep for few days just to make cakes . got so many complimentary from many people (thank you!) . know the little thing called macaroon . learn how to make japanese cheesecake . and yeah the nyummy opera cake . got 170 ++ likes on facebook abt my cupcakes & cake . i guess for the first time ever, got few people complimented me pretty - LOL . and i got tagged as 'chinese baby doll' . made 17th birthday cupcakes with tiers and stuff . still single for 19 consecutive years BLAH!! . bought my self 1 million ++ pressie for my bday . finally meet with my AR1SAN chumss :)

well im sure theres much more than that but i cant really recall it though :| well you cant really make 365 days memories into one post i guess. theres always something left behind! lol well im pretty sure my 2011 is filled mostly with Hyatt :p i miss it so muchy damn much.

anyway ....


happy new year 2012 loves! 2011 wasnt the best nor the worst and im saying goodbye with smile on my face :') ill definitely post more next year! ha! SEE YOU GUYS! love, mingmonglie mingmongsy mingmongki, mingmingmingmong! tathaaa :*

fabulist

"mirror mirror on the wall, tell me who's the best liar of them all?"

mirror mirror on the wall could show the queen who's the fairest of them all, i suppose it could tell me who's the best liar, right? or at least tell me, who's lying and who's not.

"everytime I decide to trust someone, it always ends up reminding me why I shouldn't have"

in this peculiar world, i really fancy knowing who to trust. is there any? or is there none? are you sure that the one who swear an oath that he/she would not lie, would have the strength to keep it? or actually have they planned to break their own oath before they even swore?

a twisted world where looks can deceive you, someone who seemed to be fragile and soft, even stabbed you harder than the eerie ones. and frankly speaking, ive seen it with my own eyes, one who covered her whole body and head with fabrics, one who physically said that she's virtuous, ended up killing people silently with her words. such a shame!

back to chapter one

2011's almost over, its the end of year, and im asking myself, what have I been doing for the past 1 year? learning making cakes? yes! its a year full of cakes. and its just the start of my never ending journey!

life has been boring. cakes everyday. similar designs everyday which makes it even more boring. well lately ive spent like most of the money ive earned and i regret few things i bought. and my feeling is messed up and stuff, sometimes I even wonder. what is my purpose of living?

And lately, a glimpse part of my life this year tickles me. Hyatt, yes i miss it so damn freakin much. havent been in a good mood lately, and Ive went there like twice a week this month. I keep on recalling my fading memories there. but lately im missing the people there. Well, the old trainees, my superb trainee-mates. the new ones dont really intrigue me much as for me i think they have a serious attitude problems. well, i miss all of the staffs there, well, i miss every inch of my life there!

It's late night and i'm here in front of my laptop asking my self how come 6 months flew by that fast? I really wish this life does have a remote control which I could press rewind. I wish I could re-do this whole 6 months training thing, back to March 1 2011.

It's been a great honor to be trained at Grand Hyatt, one of the top 3 hotel in Jakarta! I didn't realize how lucky I was to be given the chance to work there, not until these last few months.


Being able to be trained there is almost as exciting as getting a golden ticket to Charlie's chocolate factory! indeed it is!

March.
A chapter which is prefaced with tears and laughter.

March 1 2011, orientation day. shameful, friendless, hyped, sad and shocked. I was late for orientation day, I didnt have any friends to accompany me, the only Trisakti student is me, I ate lunch alone, saying to Cheryl i'm okay while I was pretty lonely. yes, friendless indeed! got bored with lots of videos, searching through the entire orientation room for other pastry trainees. and yes, that's the first time I met Sarah!
March 2, 2011. day one of training. My first ever job was to make the versatile double chocolate cookies! I got myself Pak Alwi as my mentor, and Sarah got Pak AA as hers! Lesson learned is that I have to make the cookies with exact size! Size does matter! ;) and hello kak Citrawati, Jose and Gery!
March 3, 2011. First time meeting Pak Apit and kak sisy the stove girl haha :') and I'm in spanish peanut butter cookies madness, the scrumptious cookies which is too, Sultan Brunei's favorite!
March 4, 2011. first time meeting kak Maria, she got hospitalized and taraaaa! welcome back to the teamclove! :D
and there it goes, day by day, making cookies, rounding it one by one, being stuck in the chocolate room making Black Forest cookie which was a total disaster as it was overmixed! yet it was a lovely cookie tho! and i like it so much! nyum!

somewhere in the middle of March, I actually cried a few times, I felt lonely, I had no one to talk to as the others were still strangers, I had no one to lean on, I felt jealous with others as I thought im not loveable enough, well, it was all a total bizarre!

And now, in the middle of December, I keep on regretting how come I took it for granted? my chance to be trained in Grand Hyatt. its just like that! i have new friends though now. lovely "family" yet, we're separated now! I guess im just feeling lonely these days. and the troubles i got lately, I just feel like dying inside. I guess aside from being lonely, im depressed too. and no, im not into Christmas celebration. im lost.