Thursday, July 26, 2012
Saturday, July 21, 2012
How far can i go?
Hello loves! Finally I played volleyball after months! And im just really happy about it! It felt like im back to a high school student again! Saturday morning playing volleyball in smak 1, being totally carefree about the blazing-hot sun which always burns my skin, fall to the ground just to save a ball which left some bruises on my knee. It sounds bad, but it just feels good! :)
Well enough with the preface, well lately ive been reading books about pastries. And 1 really inspired me a lot!
The pastry chefs apprentice! Its a really good book! Every junior pattisier should read it! But well thats not the point.
Another negatif ill-minded me, i keep on being so .... Pesimistic! Yeah, at some nights when i was working alone, i often asked myself, how good will I ever be? Can i be a really great pattisier? Will I ever be able to make cakes that EVERYONE loves?
Well im not trying to boast around or something but lately i got so many praises from others as I could make fancy cakes, which are considered an amazing work compared to my age.
But somehow, im not sattisfied yet, deel down im not really happy. I really want to go somewhere and be an apprentice of someone really great that i will end up as someone great too!
Yet you know, language and money ARE problems for me. I dont really feel like demanding my parents to send me to foreign countries and spend their money on my tuition fee (although, yeah, actually its their responsibility to take care of it). Oh well, what do you say? I have 5 others siblings who are still depeding on my parents money and i guess i cant be selfish.
My tuition fee will cost me around IDR 300 million. Exclude the living cost and stuff, and yes, that does cost a fortune! But somehow i am sad. Ive seen many of my juniors who have surpassed my skill and im feeling bad about it :(
I feel like im being left way behind by others :( well probably on the cake decor skill im considered as pro, but at classic french i sucks. Okay i do.
Sometimes it hurts to see my friends tweeting / posting picts about their uni-life. I envy those. I have no uni-life. I have no new friends, i have no new seniors or juniors and thats pretty killing me as i think ive become a total anti social kind of girl.
Argh! Another twisted mind of mine :( well, id be grateful if you guys could pray for me so i can go to japan soon. Probably thats the only way out since im sick of indonesia, jakarta, and my own home. I really do need a new chapter of my life! I need to travel the world!
And thank you for the loyal readers who still open my blog! Never thought mingmingmingmong still have readers :p love you guys!
Anyway thats the cover of the pastry chefs apprentice! All pastry lovers should read it! :)
Well enough with the preface, well lately ive been reading books about pastries. And 1 really inspired me a lot!
The pastry chefs apprentice! Its a really good book! Every junior pattisier should read it! But well thats not the point.
Another negatif ill-minded me, i keep on being so .... Pesimistic! Yeah, at some nights when i was working alone, i often asked myself, how good will I ever be? Can i be a really great pattisier? Will I ever be able to make cakes that EVERYONE loves?
Well im not trying to boast around or something but lately i got so many praises from others as I could make fancy cakes, which are considered an amazing work compared to my age.
But somehow, im not sattisfied yet, deel down im not really happy. I really want to go somewhere and be an apprentice of someone really great that i will end up as someone great too!
Yet you know, language and money ARE problems for me. I dont really feel like demanding my parents to send me to foreign countries and spend their money on my tuition fee (although, yeah, actually its their responsibility to take care of it). Oh well, what do you say? I have 5 others siblings who are still depeding on my parents money and i guess i cant be selfish.
My tuition fee will cost me around IDR 300 million. Exclude the living cost and stuff, and yes, that does cost a fortune! But somehow i am sad. Ive seen many of my juniors who have surpassed my skill and im feeling bad about it :(
I feel like im being left way behind by others :( well probably on the cake decor skill im considered as pro, but at classic french i sucks. Okay i do.
Sometimes it hurts to see my friends tweeting / posting picts about their uni-life. I envy those. I have no uni-life. I have no new friends, i have no new seniors or juniors and thats pretty killing me as i think ive become a total anti social kind of girl.
Argh! Another twisted mind of mine :( well, id be grateful if you guys could pray for me so i can go to japan soon. Probably thats the only way out since im sick of indonesia, jakarta, and my own home. I really do need a new chapter of my life! I need to travel the world!
And thank you for the loyal readers who still open my blog! Never thought mingmingmingmong still have readers :p love you guys!
Anyway thats the cover of the pastry chefs apprentice! All pastry lovers should read it! :)
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