will it last?

our friendship, will it last forever?
until we graduate from high school? will you sit right next to me at the graduation?
until we go to university? will you know where i'll go?
until we become a junior? will you know how i feel about that?
until we become sophomore again? will you know how i was?
and in senior year like now? will you even know i'm about to graduate again
until we get a job? will you know what am i going to be?
until we barely contact each other because too busy? will we text each other?
until we become successful? will you meet me after your show?
until we got engaged with someone else? will you know who my mate is?
until we get married? will you send me an invitation?
until we get ourself a child? will you know whether it's a boy or girl?
until we grow old? will you visit my house someday?
until we got sick? will you even know that I'm hospitalized?
until we got grandchild? will they be friends like us?
until I die? will you come to my funeral?
will we still be friends when we go to heaven?

sad but true, and I wonder, who will be my real long lasting friend. you say you're my best friend, but i already see a deep cliff separating us apart, I no longer talk to you as we did. Maybe it's just the anxiety thing, but you know, i feel tremendously insecure about our friendship. I somehow got scared it will be broken. like a mirror, which after you break it, it wont be as it used to be. please tell me something that can throw away this morbid feelings.