One day

Last day

Again, its already the end of 2014. Page 365/365. Only 4 hours left from 8.760. Im actually not that hyped with new year. I mean, theres nothing really special about it, its not really a fresh start. Its not like you quit your job last december and youre gonna start january sharp. And i used to be excited about fireworks, but since youve been through that every year, its not special anymore. 

Im pretty grateful that i dont really have to work during NYE -not that it matters, but im pretty sure its something to be happy about. To look at people working in restaurants, or maybe in gyms, malls, and all the janitors that still gotta work, they deserve more. They actually deserve decent break more than we do.

I really wish everyone success!  Good luck with 2015, its just gonna be another tough year. Cos i believe someone in their 20s cant reach a stability this early, and to those who havent start working their ass off, start now! Cos youre getting late. See you on top.

Torn

Lately my life is a constant dilemma between 2 things

1. Should i start a conversation? Oh well, were friends right? No problem, i can talk about everything whether its big or small. I can say whatever i want whenever i want to.

2. But what if he/she is busy? Im afraid im going to bother them. i should wait until he/she contacts me first. I dont want to be a social burden to anyone.

Pre holiday

19.12.2014

5 more days to holiday and im feeling like shit. I really just wanna sleep. I really really really need a break.

I know people said i work too hard etc etc, but trust me, all i know all successful people out  there dont have that 8 fucking hour of sleep during their early days.

I believe if you want to succeed you have to work harder than anyone else, you have to give more in order to receive more.

And i think time and dedication is the price that i have to pay in order to be successful.

One day

Yes, why not let die instead?

My little barb

Oh hello, here i am, 9.43, so damn lazy to get back to work. I dont know, im kinda moody today. Dad said gavin's gonna give barbie (my little golden retriever love) so other people, and its really bugging me.

Its just so unfair. Giving away dog is much worse than ending a relationship. I mean if you break up, your ex can live without you, but imagine a dog, who sees you as its whole life, and you threw it away, just because you cant take care of it anymore. Its just so wrong. Whos gonna take care of it?

If you cant really commit, dont get a dog. Cos idk, ive had some dogs and you can feel it that they love you more than anything else. I want to keep barbie but unfortunately my house is not the pet-housing type. And my mom would kill me if i keep barbie. And her fur is all over the place, and the worst thing is they got to my cakes.

Ah i dont know what to say, im just upset. I cant really stand the thought of barbie being betrayed by gavin by giving her away to someone else T_____T its just too unfair

The energy never dies

" Life is just a blink, so dont think twice "

04/11

Dear me, oh its morning and my mood is fucked up already. Too many things to do, too many things to pay, too many things to be done and its all by yourself.

Can i say right now i really wish that im just an ordinary college girl who just graduated and currently looking for a job?

Im tired, im stressed, im exhausted, i just want to sleep. I just want to chill. Why cant i be a normal 21 y.o girl? Not a girl who works 100 hours a week. A girl who doesnt know anything about life.

Ive never really done anything stupid, ive never been in a relationship, it scares me. Ive never get wasted, do anything reckless

Dont get ne wrong i love my job but right now i really feel so tired and its kinda killing me.

I need a break. Soon. Birthday holiday please come faster

Nothing feels better than getting random msg from someone you miss most.

2.27 - 2.30

Its 2.27 AM and i cant sleep because im thinking of someone and some things that will never be. Oh ming ming you are mentally fucked. Yes, you are. Now put your phone down and close your eyes.

Night night! Anyway, do people still actually read this blog? If yes please comment something ( just do it anonymously)